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Mom has to go back into surgery again. This time it is to fix the leads in the defibrillator. Mom thought that it might happen this coming week, but she remembered she has a abscess tooth. So they are not going to let her have surgery until that gets taking care of. So the surgery won't be this week but maybe the next week. Mom is looking into getting a dentist. I don't know if she will have anything done w/the tooth before or after surgery. She is taking a antibiotic for it right now. Actually this is her second round. Hopefully she can get the tooth healed up enough to have surgery for the defibrillator, then do the tooth. I told her she should ask the doctor to take of the tooth while they were taking care of the defibrillator. Might as well get it all done at the same time right?:)
Tonight we are going to a Wild Life Turkey Federation Auction/Dinner. This is Jason's 6th yr in being the auctioneer. So we'll have a late night, again. But it is always fun to go to.

Later!

Love Ya'll

Surgery for Mom again

Mom went to the doctor today. This is one that deals with the defibrillator she had put in back in June. She went last week to this doctor & he upped the defibrillator form 70 percent to 80 percent. So as they are leaving, she notices that she is alittle out of breath. Mom just thought it was because it was a long walk back to the van. Well, mom was out of breath just walking 6 ft. at home.
So, Monday night mom & dad went to the hospital & mom got a chest x-ray. Today she got the results of that x-ray. Two of the wires for the defibrillator are not working. Which means they have to back in there & fix them or replace them. Mom was not looking forward to that news.
Mom doesn't know when this will happen. She's thinking that it will probably take place some time next week. So as soon as we know, I'll be blogging it. Mom wants to get this done & get better, because they are having a yard sale in April so they can go to Branson with us in May!

KEEP MOM IN YOUR PRAYERS!!!

Love Ya'll

Out of Shape

I am sore!! Last night we went to the Family Fun Center in Bonne Terre. We ate, bowled, golfed, arcades. All in about 3 hours! And I am sure paying for it today! My legs are telling me, I need to get back into shape. Jason & I haven't been bowling for about 8 yrs. Joel & Justin, this was their first time to go bowling. Oh my God, it was so cute! They had a blast. I actually came in last in bowling. I got beat by my husband & my 2 kids. That's not right! We figured out it's much easier to play bowling on the Wii. You can always start over on that. Real life bowling was a bit different. The boys were very upset because we had to leave. Joel cried as we're walking out the door. So of course, today that is all they have talked about. They want to go back, they want to go back.
Then tonight, we went to a home basketball game. Justin loves basketball. He so wants to get out there & play. Joel would prefer to stay home. Basketball is not really his thing. He would rather play a game like golf or bowling, that requires thinking. I have to put cotton in his ears every time we go. He says the buzzer hurts his ears. Yeah, so does popping your gum...at least to him it does. Tomorrow night there is an elementary basketball game. That is really cute. We went to one for the first time last week. It's the cutest thing watching 5th & 6th graders play basketball. And some of them were really good!
Jason has an auction this week-end. Things should be pretty calm this week-end. I'm going to write another blog about mom. She's going to have to have more surgery.


Love Ya'll

Big trip to Mom's

Me & the boys went up to mom & dad's on Saturday. Jason had a huge consignment auction & I was not about to stay here all day, w/2 boys. Yes, I stay home w/them, but on consignment auctions, that is different. Jason leaves at 5 am & doesn't get home till about 9 pm. We left here @ 8:15am & didn't get home till about 9:30pm. Boy, that was a long day. But we had a lot of fun! Aunt Barbie & Uncle Rudy came by with the Michael, Madison, & Maria. So there was a full house. It was a good visit.
Mom had gone to one of her doctors Thursday afternoon. This was the doctor that works with the defibrillator she had put in back in June of 2009. He upped her heart rate from 70 percent to 80 percent. And now she's have trouble walking 6 ft without being out of breath! She said that happened when she left the office. That she was out of breath walking back to the car. HELLO!!! Go back into the office & tell them to change/lower your heart rate. "Yeah, I should have" was her response to me yesterday. The Doctor seems to think that one of the wires aren't doing what it's suppose to do or has become disconnected. GREAT! So, tomorrow she is getting an x-ray & has an appointment on Thursday back with that doctor. We shall see.
Over all, mom was doing great Saturday. She even got on the floor to play with the boys! Which she hasn't done in about 4/5 months! After lunch, I put the boys down for a nap & mom took one too. By the time we were leaving, she was starting to feel pretty worn out.
Plus, mom is also dealing with an abscessed tooth. By afternoon, her left jaw was looking pretty swollen. She is on an antibiotic for it & pain medicine isn't working. She's looking into finding a dentist. Hopefully she can find one & get it taken care of.
Boys are doing good. Thankfully, Justin didn't get sick this time. We have a busy week ahead of us, so I guess I better get to bed!

Love Ya'll

Justin's better!

If anyone read the blog before this one, you'd understand this one. But Justin is feeling much better. He was still running a little fever on Tuesday. So if he wasn't any better by Wednesday, I was going to call the doctor. But on Wednesday, he never ran a fever or anything else. Thank God for that!!!
As for mom, she is still doing good. Again, it's wonderful to be able to really have a great conversation with her over the phone! Me & the boys are heading up there Saturday to spend the day. I hope it's another great visit.
Sorry this blog is short & sweet. There's really not to much going on here. Thankfully everyone is feeling good & doing good!

Love Ya'll

SHE'S BACK!!!

It is ssssooooo wonderful to have mom back!!! We went Sunday, which of course was Valentine's Day! We went to church, & were suppose to go out to lunch, but Justin got sick @ church.
The worship service was just about over, when he started to get fussy. So as I'm carrying him out, here it comes....all over me, him, & his blankets! So we get out to the lobby, he does it again! So both of us got cleaned up, headed back into the service. Justin took a nap in the pew, which was good. So we decided to eat @ Crackle Barrel, but it was going to be a 40 min. wait!! Justin was getting fussy again, so we decided to head to mom & dad's & ordered pizza.
By the time we got to their house, Justin was running a 102.5 fever! Justin then threw up again on me & in the trash can. I didn't bring me any clothes to change into! Jason walked over to Wal-Greens & got some Motrin. Justin wanted to go downstairs to our bedroom & take a nap. Which he ended up taking a 2 hr nap! Then he felt much better. He ate 2 little pieces of pizza & felt fine, until we started to leave. Then his fever started going back up.
We decided to head home about 4 o'clock, in part because Justin wasn't feeling very good, but also because there was snow & sleet coming down. We stopped at Bonne Terre for shakes & Justin needed to go potty. No problem. Then we get to Farmington, & Joel needed to go potty! So it took us alittle more than 2 hrs to get home from the stopping & the snow that was coming down.
Mom was doing wonderfully! She looked good, sounded good! Just like she was back in August through October. It was so nice to finally get to see her & dad too!! Me & the boys are going up there this Saturday to spend the day, while Jason has a BIG auction. Over all, it was a great trip, even though Justin did get sick. The boys had a good time too!

Love Ya'll

Sooo Much Better!!

Mom has been home 3 days now & she is so much like her old self! Even though I haven't seen her in almost 3 wks, just by talking to her on the phone, I can tell there is a world of difference! It's so nice to be able to call & actually "talk" to each other. Before, all I could do was call & listen. Now we both can talk, laugh, make jokes, & it's wonderful!!!
I know mom still has some things that need to be worked on. There are some new meds she is taking, that hopefully she won't have to take for long. Mom's feet are still swollen & not sure why just yet. But I can really tell that she is talking more "in her head" than "in a fog"! It's wonderful to have mom back!
We are planning on going up this Sunday to visit. I know it will be a wonderful visit.

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Love Ya'll

Mom's Home!!

Mom came home today!! Mom called me about 1:30 this afternoon & said she was on her way home, dad had come to pick her up. Mom sounded good. She was so looking forward to going home & doing her own thing. I just hope she doesn't go back to staying in bed all day!
When I talked to her, she was working on her medicines. She hadn't really had a chance to read the paper from the hospital about the changes in her medicines. In the coming weeks she will be having doctor appts.
I asked her when could we come up & she said to come up on Sunday. Which just happens to be Valentine's Day! As of tonight, she said she would be going to church. We'll see. That will all depend on what she does the rest of this week. Mom hasn't been to church for about 3 months, I guess.
Mom did say that her kidney levels had come down a great deal. Which is a very good thing. I think when she went in, the levels were at 3. something. And when she left, the levels were at 1. something. So hopefully that will continue to improve!! And mom continues to improve!!!

Love Ya'll!!

Mom Again!

I talked to mom this evening around 7:30 pm. Once again, she sounded really good! Mom was up doing some walking today & felt pretty good. Mom still has the thrush. Her thinking is it might be something else; she still has the sores too. Mom said her feet are swollen again & doesn't know why. The nurses are keeping track of her output, but not her input. Which they usually monitor both. But none of the doctors seem worried about it.
Mom is waiting on one more doctor to come in & see her. This is her kidney doctor she's waiting on. As of today, no one had seen or heard from that doctor. Hopefully he will come by tomorrow & see her. He was in on Thursday last week to see her. Mom still doesn't know what they are going to do about her kidneys.
Mom did say they have taken some of her medicines out. It would be nice if they could just let her take the ones she ABSOLUTELY has to have & the other ones throw out! I know there are some meds that she really needs. Just like I know there are some meds she doesn't need.
So things seem to be looking up for mom. Hopefully she can come home sometime this week!


Love Ya'll

Better Again

I actually got to talk to mom tonight. The phone rang about 6:30 pm. It was dad's cell phone, so I just figured it was him....it was mom! It was great to hear her voice. Mom asked why I haven't called. And I told her that dad told me the last 2 days, not to. I didn't say anything about dad telling me that I didn't need to come up. I wasn't about to stir up trouble.
Mom sounded very good. She had sat in a chair for 6 hrs today. And when I was on the phone, mom was sitting on the edge of the bed. By the time we were about to get off, the nurse had come in w/her medicine for the thrush. It's a swish & swallow medicine. Mom says she has several sores in her mouth. Which I think that is from the shaking she had, which contributed to her biting the inside of her mouth & tongue. Which by the way, mom says the shaking has stopped.
Mom was in a very uppy mood tonight. It was a very good conversation, talking like her old self! Mom kind-of thinks she might go home tomorrow. That's the feeling she was getting & hearing when 2 of her doctors came in today. I told her that as soon as she got home , we would be there!!!

Love Ya'll

Still about the same

I talked to dad about 8 this evening & things were pretty much the same. Physical therapy came by today. Got mom up for a little walking, had her sit in a chair for about an hour & a half. Dad said she was on the sleepy side for most of the day.
Mom has developed Thrush, which they have started an oral antibiotic for that. She has had, what the nurses are calling, "3 massive bm's". They have started her on an oral laxative. Which is suppose to be very gentle.
Her cardiologist came in today also. He said they are definitely going to be looking into all the meds mom is on. But it looks like the culprit for all this mess is probably her kidneys. Since they aren't functioning like they should, they're not get the toxins out of her system. But she is not a candidate for surgery, because of her heart. Mom's heart is only functioning at 20 percent.
So nothing has really been said if any surgeries or procedures will be taking place. Not sure how long mom is going to be in there. But she is being taken care. She's where she needs to be. And hopefully it won't take long! I miss seeing & talking to mom!!
Got church tomorrow & a birthday party to go to. Maybe that will help keep my mind off of things with mom!

Love Ya'll

I WANNA GO!!

I'm still getting a NO answer from dad about going & seeing mom. I still have people telling me to trust my dad's judgement & thinking. Is he thinking? I know mom is not feeling well, but what does she think of the fact that her only daughter has not come up to see her? Has she even asked for me? Asked if I'm coming to see her? I want to see my mom, but at the same time, think I should listen to my dad & not go. I'm confused!
Mom's cardiologist's nurse/assistant came in today & dad told her all that has been going on. She's thinking that some of this may be from the meds & her kidney's not working together. Especially since her kidney's are doing very well. Dad still has not talked to Stuart(Dr. Mauch), which is mom's primary doctor. This all happened this morning. It's now almost 3 in the afternoon & I haven't heard anymore from dad.
It is comforting to know that there are family members, who are trying to help my out, by telling me to "listen to your dad". But at times I feel that they are taking his side & taking my side at the same time....?
I'm trying to get on with my life. Taking care of my family. But mom is also part of my family. And yet I'm told, basically that I'm not needed or wanted. Which I know is all in my head...right? I just feel like I'm being left out. Yes, dad & I stay in-touch, but it's not the same. I'm starting to feel hurt because I'm told not to come....like I'm not wanted.
Today has been an emotional day! I feel more like I'm pmsing than anything else! I'll talk things over with Jason & see what he thinks.

Later. Love Ya'll

Back to Not Good

I talked to dad at noon today. He said that mom had a big bm last night. One she has probably been needed to do for a very long time! I don't know if that was what the blockage was or if they are going to do another CAT scan to see if there are any more blockages. Mom has a potty chair next to her bed. So sometime during the night, mom tried to get up & fell on her bottom. The nurses came in of course. They wanted to call dad & tell him, but she told them not to. All he would say, was that she's done that before, no big thing. So after that, the nurses have laid down the law, "No getting up, unless someone is here to help."
Dad called about 7:30 pm & said mom is back to the way she was before she got in the hospital. So maybe now, everyone will understand the seriousness of things with her & get this worked out. She still is taking the same meds as she was at home. She told me that yesterday when I talked to her. The nurse brought her, her meds. She asked what they were, nurse told her, & she knew right way that, that was what she was taking at home.
So I have no clue what's going to happen now.? Mom's kidney dc. came in yesterday & mentioned that her kidney's were alittle worse than what they had thought. But they want to get these other problems taken care of first, then work on that. Some talk may be kidney dialysis.
I think there is a little depression too. When this all started several months ago, all I would hear in our phone conversations, was sadness, loneliness, how tired she was, how much pain she was in. Mom has no one who comes & visits her. Except you, Aunt Barbie. No calls her, except for 3 or 4 people. I'm one who calls her daily, along with dad. Sometimes several times a day, depending on what's going on. Mom can't go out & do things on her own anymore. The friends she does have, live to far away & have lives of their own. Not even her own son comes over or calls to see how she's doing or to offer to come over & help with things. But that's a whole other story, that I'm not going to go into.
Dad still doesn't want anyone to come & see her. My Aunt Debbie, her own sister, dad won't even let her come. I don't know why dad is not wanting any support from any one. Which is what I'm getting from him. I don't even know if Aunt Barbie has been to see her.
So needless to say, I'm sad & hurt, that my dad won't let me come & see my mom. Of course I want to take my boys too! I know they don't completely understand what's going on with Nana, but it sure would make me feel better knowing they got to see her one last time........:( I'm trying not to think the worst, but it's very hard when I'm not aloud by my own father, to come & see my mom!!! I'm not sure what he's thinking or if he is.
I guess I've vented enough for the night. We are getting more snow tonight. The 4-5 inches we got this time last week, was starting to disappear....and now it's back!:) Fun for the kids!!

Love Ya'll

I talked to dad about 9 this evening. I told him that I really wanted to come up tomorrow & see mom. But he told me it would be best if I didn't. Of course that didn't fly with me! Dad said mom needs her rest & she needs to concentrate on things going on w/the doctor's & nurses. Not trying to have visitation with me & the boys! So needless to say, I'm not very happy.
We have not see my parents for 2 wks now. I would really like to see her. I know my boys would love to see her. But I don't want to drive 2 hrs. & only stay 20 mins. So it really has to be worth the drive to stay as long as we can. So I think coming up & see my mother, who is in the hospital, is worth the drive!!! But dad says no. Yet I don't need to rat on dad by telling mom, "Dad told me not to come." Yeah, that would do wonders!? Get him in trouble? I don't think so.

Mom is making some progress, but there's still alot to do. Now that she is in one place, the doctors can come see her, instead of her going to them!!! I still want to go up there! But even being 33 yrs old, sometimes you still have to listen to your parents....I guess?

That's all I have for now. Dad says there's suppose to be snow up there tomorrow, that was another reason he didn't want me to come...so I wouldn't be driving in snow....WHO CARES? I was driving in 4 inches of snow this time last week!!! *&^$#@!#$%&*

Good Night Ya'll
Love Ya!

Doing Better!

I just talked to mom about 3 pm. & boy did she sound better! She has a room mate, so she didn't' want to talk to loud. But I couldn't tell you the last time I had a "normal" conversation with her. She was telling me things that was going on with her, what they have done to her to help her out. She was remembering things, a whole lot better. So the results from the CAT scan last night, showed there was a blockage. They have given her several enemas, now they have given her Prune Juice. I don't know how many bm's she has had. I guess if there is still a blockage, then I guess they go in and remove it with surgery.
I told her that I didn't want to sound mean or joke about this, but could all of these other issues be from being so constipated? She said it could be. Like I said I really wasn't trying to make a joke out it. But she sound so much like her real self! Maybe if they get her cleaned out & unblocked then maybe everything else will fall into place!?
She was on oxygen, but they were going to be removing that. She is on NO iv's. She was alittle OVER hydrated. Which that was a shock considering she hadn't really been drinking like she should have.
So over all, a much better report today! I'll be back later!

Love Ya'll

Mom's in the Hospital

Mom was admitted to the hospital last night. I talked to dad this morning @ 8:15 am & he sounded very excited. He said he thought he had called the wrong room. It didn't sound like her. He said she sounded like her old self or normal self. They had given her 2 water enemas through the night.
Mom has been in the ER enough times, that when she finally gets to go home or gets admitted, she is extremely exhausted. So you don't bother her too much the next day. But dad was very excited the hear that familiar voice that we haven't heard in a long time!!
I told dad that I was planning on coming up tomorrow, but he said wait till Saturday because there was suppose to be snow coming. We'll see when I go. I would really like to go tomorrow instead of waiting.
I hope they keep her until they can get EVERYTHING straighten out! I'll be back later today to give more when I get it!

Love Ya'll

It is now 10 pm. I just heard from dad that they are admitting mom. She is at Memorial Hospital in Belleville, Ill. Hopefully now we can get something done to get her on the right track to recover. This really should have been done months ago. But when your mother is hard headed & very tired of hospitals, it's hard to get her to go. She has been in & out so many times, I guess I can't blame her for not wanting to go sooner.

Keep her & my dad in your prayers! Please pass the word to those who know her, so they can be praying too!

Love Ya'll

I talked to dad about 10 til 5. They made it to the ER about 2:30 pm. They've taken 7 tubes of blood, took a urine sample, & dad thought they may be taking mom down to do a CAT scan of mom's abdomen. Dad said mom's urine was really dark, which of course means there's some kind of infection going on there. Mom had mentioned to dad today, that she's had some burning when she going to the bathroom. But she had forgotten to tell him. Dad also said that mom's skin color doesn't look very goo either. He said he's going to really try to push getting mom admitted. Then all the blood work & test results will be all in one place. Not scattered all over Belleville!!
That's all I know for the moment. I'll be back when I hear more!

Love Ya'll

I never thought I would ever do anything like this! But writing on paper just doesn't do it anymore! Especially when I need support from others. After I get off the phone w/mom, I sometimes feel very frustrated at what I'm hearing from her. She tells me that these doctors want more blood work done...WHAT THE HECK IS THAT GOING TO TELL? It hasn't told them anything yet, because they're not doing anything to help!
Another reason for blogging, is to hopefully keep my anger from going to my parents, my husband, my children, and everyone else around me. It's not their fault. I'm just tired of not getting any results from these doctors. Living so far from my parents makes it even harder.
Anthony, I wish my parents did live closer to you guys! I'm so thankfully that your mom is working so close to my parents! You guys are AWESOME!! That was a relief knowing she was going over to mom's on Monday to check on her. Of course I was waiting for the worst phone call of my life! Not knowing what she was going to find.
Like I said, I really needed to put my thoughts & feellings somewhere else besides on paper, where no one else will see, atleast for many years won't see. But also to let others know what's going on. Sometimes phone calls only go so far. Here on the World Wide Web, things seem to travel very far, very fast! And everyone is here in one place!

Love Ya'll!!!

Dad is heading home and taking mom to the ER. She is having trimers really bad. I'll let you know more when I find out something.

Today my dad was going to be calling the doctor to see if he can get my mom in the hospital. My mom is having a hard time staying awake. This past Monday, my dad couldn't get ahold of mom on the phone, so he called my aunt, who thankfully just works less than 10 mins away. She went over & woke my mom up. This was around 1:30/2 pm. Mom had not had any lunch nor any of her lunch meds. This is the time I wish I lived alot closer!! Hopefully if dad can get her in the hospital, then maybe something will happen!! Like, getting her BETTER!!!!!

I'll add more later today if anything changes.

Just keep praying!

Greetings to All

I decided to try something new today: Face book & blogging. Hopefully as time goes by, I'll get better at this. Learning internet lingo. So bear with me. My main reason for starting a blog, was to let things go! Mainly things that are going on with my mother. Right now she is in very bad health & is only 58 yrs. old. I live about an hr. & 45 mins away. It's very hard for me to get there in a snap. Especially since I am married & have 2 kids. Thankfully I don't work, so I am able to leave at any time I need to. Anyway, I will try to write here as much as I can. This is pretty much a Journal of what's going on in my life & letting the whole world in on it! God is in total control. But I'm not sure where we're going or why. So hold on, cause here we go!